This past weekend I made a major life choice: I decided to change my major from Elementary Education to Business. Now, I did not go into the weekend thinking that I was going to change my major. I did not even go into the weekend thinking about college at all. It's summer break, and after finishing off a tough semester, college was the last thing I wanted to be actively thinking about. But somehow, the topic of my major came up when talking to my husband, and all at once, I began questioning everything. Over the course of just one day, it became so evident to me that I had to change my major. I felt like my blinders had been taken off and I could see the path I was to follow now. I realized that a lifetime of passion had been leading up to this degree. Let me explain.
Ever since I was a little girl, I had a business mindset. I still have a sketch I made when I was about seven years old of a little boutique I wanted to open one day. I had the whole store designed, products listed, and prices for the products. For the years following, every time summer break would come around, I would pretend to open up little companies and clubs and sell items to my brother. I had full binders worth of information on the company, coupons, goods sold, and services provided. I remember printing out fake business cards and feeling so professional. You see, running a business had been a dream of mine all the way back to seven-year-old me.
As I became a teenager, I started working in children's ministries and realized my love for children. I enjoyed being able to lead and have an impact on the kids. And as I grew up, I let go of my childhood games of opening a business and began focusing on my journey with children. However, the business passion never left the back of my mind. I would watch Youtubers and follow women on Instagram who had started their own little side companies and would dream about one day having my own business. Every time I met someone who had started their own company, I was instantly intrigued and wanted to hear about how they started.
When I was an older teenager, I watched a Hallmark movie called The Bridge. And while the main premise of the movie was a love story between the two main characters, as all Hallmark movies are, that was not what kept the movie in my mind in the days to follow. Instead of dreaming about meeting my true love, I was dreaming about opening a little bookstore and café like they had in the movie. This bookstore had such a cozy setting, and the owners knew all their customers and took the time to talk to everyone who came in. It really made an impact on me. That became my ultimate dream in life, to open up a place like that. I began looking up how to start your own business, but I quickly became overwhelmed by all of the information and actions that needed to be done, and I let that crash on my dream.
When it came time to pick my major for college, I sat at my computer for a minute and thought. At the time, it seemed like Elementary Education was a given. I had been working with children for years at that point and knew I enjoyed doing it. I got joy out of being a positive influence for the younger ones around me. So I went with Elementary Education with the thought of, "I don't know what else I would pick." Business was in the back of my mind, as always, but I brushed it aside quickly, not thinking it was actually realistic. I went with the safe option.
Starting off college with all my general education courses, I was still excited to start my Education classes. But when I read questions and heard videos of people talking about dreaming big in life, I always knew my ultimate dream was to run a business one day. I planned to teach for a little bit and then pursue my dream. As I finally began to take a few education classes, I enjoyed them. I took away a lot about life and how children think.
But as I realized the other day, that is all I enjoyed about them. I liked learning about children and how to care for them, and I liked learning about how to show love to others and spread Jesus through our actions. But I did not like learning about how to deal with children in a classroom. I began to finally get a picture of what my life would look like, going into a classroom every day and being prepared to teach and care for a full room of students - every. single. day. The thought became less and less appealing to me. And while I had been slowly realizing that throughout the semester, I was scared to admit it. I was scared to admit that my whole life plan as of the last few years could completely change. I was comfortable staying in my zone, doing something I know I would at least be decent at.
On Saturday, I woke up only thinking about my plans for the day. And for whatever reason for that particular morning, I believe God put a revelation on my heart. Everything hit me at once. I had been getting less and less excited to teach. I had a passion for business since a young age. I have enjoyed my economic classes that taught about businesses. My dreams all consist of running my own business. So why in the world was I majoring in Elementary Education?!?!
While I began to get these thoughts, I shared a bit with Nate, my husband, and he asked such a simple question. "What gets you more excited - going into a classroom every day and teaching kids, or going into a business every day and running it?" Instantly, I started to say business without even thinking about it for more than a second, but I caught myself and stopped. It scared me to admit what I knew was true. But as I prayed and thought about it all day, I just knew. I knew this was the path I needed to go on. And the next day, I sat down at my computer and submitted a major change form.
Now, I know it is not realistic to instantly open up a business as soon as I graduate college. And I am okay with that. I am excited to enter the business world and learn about how a business really runs. I am excited to grow in my field and move up the ladder. And I believe God will open the doors for me when it is time to fulfill the passions He has placed inside me. I have not completely forgotten about children either! I still love children and plan on working with them throughout my life, whether that is through my church, community, or elsewhere. I just know now that I have another path to follow.
If you would have asked me two years ago where I think I would be at this point, no way in a million years would I have said married, pregnant, and pursuing a business degree. But that's the fun part about life. You can't predict anything! As much as we try to plan out our lives, God has the ultimate plan for us, and if we allow Him to, He will direct our paths. It takes a lot of faith, but following His voice will guide us in life. I was stubborn for a while and did not want to change my plans, not knowing what my future would look like. But ever since I submitted that major change form, I have felt nothing but peace and excitement for my future. I encourage you to open your hearts to God and allow Him to guide your steps in life.
I am so excited for this new journey I am headed on! I have a loving husband and family, a baby on the way, and a new passion and joy for my future career. Life is good right now, but I give all credit to God, who knows our needs best and gives them to us in His perfect timing. So here's to the future!